In a scholarship question I was asked “What makes home, home?” I can’t accurately recall what I actually said but I know it wasn’t the answer I’m about to tell you all. I’ve been living in the biggest city of my life, going from a town that held maybe a little less than a thousand people (maybe more idk), to a town that held over 17,000+ and now? I live in an overpopulated city with millions of people. Pretty big change I know.
Anyway, now that I think of that same question. Where I’m living is just temporary. I thought it’s were I wanted to be but I absolutely hate it. Sure having all these cool places closer is neat but I can’t do much with no money or friends lol. I got my first apartment and decorated to what I think looks nice but it just doesn’t feel the same. I come home to an empty home everyday after school or work and basically do homework or relax and then repeat it the next day. So yes, to me that meaning of home has changed a lot in my mind and I’m finally realizing what I didn’t realize when I was actually HOME.
Home is where the pavement hits the dirt road, we’re you can venture out into the beautiful land and see trees and plants instead of buildings and freeways. Home has a certain smell in the air that I cannot describe to you but if I took you outside first thing in the morning you’d know. Home has its own kind of beauty that people don’t understand because to them it’s just “Indian land.” Home has this quietness that I’ve always enjoyed, something you can’t get here in the city. Home allows me to look out at night and see all the stars, instead of the thousands of airplanes or helicopters. Home is my safe place, the place I run to when I need reassurance. To me, home is where I want to be but I know I have to get through just a few more months of school. Home was never a place I desired to be, not because I wanted to see the world, but because the people there don’t understand my dream or my family. Funny thing is, it took a few years for me to realize it’s the place I want to be.
I do miss being around a small place, what I also really miss is the cold weather. I miss a lot about home but I’m glad I’m finally realizing what I’m missing out on. ❤️
Sorry I haven’t posted much this week. I’ve been super busy with my clinical rotations. I have time in the mornings but I get caught up in other things. When I get home it’s usually late at night. But my schedule will be changing again next week so I’ll be making some time to blog!
Let me know if you have any topics you want me to talk about. Thanks!
I wanted to start this blog site to talk about anything and everything that I have experienced the past 4 years being out of high school and being in the "adult world." So I guess, I should introduce myself.. my name is Tjae, I am a graduate (or alumni, alumna, idk) of Ganado High and Fort Lewis College. I just graduated with my BA in Exercise Science (not like that matters to a majority of you, but hey it matters to me!)
I am the oldest of my siblings, so I'm pretty much the one who went through the trial and error process with my parents. I think they did a pretty good job, considering where I'm at in life now. I currently am living back in Arizona, in a place that I will not mention, only because people are weird. I am going to school to get my Master's in Athletic Training, something that I have been dreaming of since I was a middle school student (yeah, a long time ago).
But, enough about me. This blog was started because I'm too shy to start vlogging on YouTube and my best friend, Aby has inspired me to start my own blog site. (Check out website) Lol. I want my blog to be specific to my schooling, what I went through, the good and the bad. Only because I have a lot of "younger" people who are in college or about to graduate from high school looking up to me. This blog will talk about scholarships, classes, life and potentially some advice on how to survive in the big kid world (basically how to get your 💩 together).
So bear with me! I'm sorry if I use offensive language, sometimes I just need to get a point across. If you don't like what I post, then by all means don't read what I write and get off my blog (simple as that!)
P.S feel free to comment on whatever subject that speaks to you haha. I enjoy reading what others have gone through or email me if you want. Know that I'm here to support you. I got your back ❤️